Today was one of the most beautiful days I will ever remember. We celebrated Pauls first birthday is heaven with Jesus. Although I am sad I realized that it is the first birthday in a long time is he is FREE!
My Father, son Evann & I took a plane over the Ponce Inlet jetty where Paul used to love to surf. We let some of his ashes go along with his favorite Hibiscus flowers. My Husband,Mother, Nana, Aunt Laura & son Noah watched from the shoreline. It is exactly what Paul would have wanted. He had both a love for surfing and flying. After landing both of my boys let two balloons go. The said the were sending them to Heaven for Uncle Paul. One for Jesus and one for Uncle Paul. It is in moments like this that you need to remember to hold your family close and cherish every moment that the Lord has blessed you with.
I LOVE YOU PAUL HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 
Hey there handsome..... I miss writing to you and talking to you. I am having a really hard time coming to terms with the fact that I have to wait even longer now to be with you again. I can't stop thinking about when we used to travel to see eachother about once a month and what was supposed to be a 3-5 day visit would turn into 2 weeks and your family thought I was never going to leave and my mom thought I was never coming home.... I miss you more than anything in the world and I'm sad that my dream of you coming to get me by just showing up at my door can no longer happen. I had a dream of you the other night and you were just holding me and I woke up and prayed to sleep again so that you wouldn't go away and by the grace of God I did and you were still there.... I miss you soooo much and love you always. You are my soulmate and there isn't a second that goes by that I don't think of you. When we dated long distance and beepers were still the "hip" thing you used to beep me "i miss u", you have no idea what that did to me. I can only hope to love again the way that I love you, but I don't think that is possible. There are so many memories, I promise to hold them in my heart and soul forever. I love you. I know we'll be together again, until than I am forever your girl. Love your girl, Patti
Dear Paul,
I really had a hard day today.....missed you so much! I have so many memories growing up with you. You were my only brother my only sibling I feel like a part of me is know gone. I know that your love dwells within me and mine in yours. One of my favorite memories was when you used to sleep under my bed at night just to be closer to me. You would sneak in and thought no one knew. Or when we would laugh and giggle for hours at such silly things. I love for always. I miss your beautiful smile 
and countagious laugh.....All my love Heather
Paul,
I went to the other site and watched the movie of you and your fam and your life and my heart broke all over again.. its just hurts soo bad to know youre gone.. i know youre in a better place.. I know this. But all I see is you showing up to meet my fam for the first time walkin into my backyard at 14 or 15 years old in white board shorts and a striped stussy shirt and birkenstocks picking me up to go on one of our first dates to the circus playing at the Commack FLEA market... and then us gettin ice cream after... and us in northport on the swings with the damn geese everywhere, or us at our shared locker in the B wing of Commack high school, or us at robert moses beach visitin my pops lifeguarding and staying until way past closing after the sun went down and us listening to michael w smith on a portable boombox as deer came up to our blanket and scared the crap out of us, and you taking me on a haunted hayride in the coldest october ever, or your sisters wedding in the tent in your backyard with the rain pouring down and everybody running for the shelter in your house and us watching your sister dance to her wedding song by celine dion, and then requesting our own song and dancing and not caring that it was raining... us at honey baked ham, our first real job together, and you breaking my chops every five seconds and hiding in the meat locker and scaring me everytime i went to get a honey baked ham out for a customer... and us in our first ever class together, keyboarding in 8th grade where my crush first developed on you, which was actually us playing fake pianos on a keyboard and half the time you were gettin in trouble for goofing around.. DAMN how i miss you... you have no idea the impact youve had on my life... you are someone that will always be in my heart and soul.. Ill love you and carry you with me always.. thank you for enriching my life and showing me romance as young as we were.. Im lucky to have known you...
I love you always .. Love, Amy
